Yesterday my sisters and I were gathered and we talked about weight….. and I realised that I am one of the very few women who actually see myself in the mirror and see a smaller person than I really am. This is a good thing because I behave like a thin person, move like a thin person, dress like a thin person (I just ignore the number on the label) and therefore get treated like a thin person. But I am a size 44-46 (UK size 14-16) girl at the moment and throughout my life my weight has fluctuated a lot – I have been as large as a 50 (UK 20) and as small as a 40 (UK 10). The only times I have been thin, have been a result of serious dieting and as soon as I had reached my target weight, I put it all back on again.
A couple of years before we moved to Denmark, I managed to shed 16 kg (2 stone and 2 lb)!!!! And they stayed off – I was happy – very happy. A little bit came on, but then I just lost it again – no big deal….. but then the impact of the move came and my husband had a breakdown………. this, unfortunately, meant that I couldn’t control my eating. I have always liked eating, and as a result have never been naturally slim, but this was the first time I ate to fill a hole – and that hole never felt full. I gained 14 (2 stone) of the 16 kg again in less than 1/2 year. it is only now, within the last 1/2 year, I have been able to concentrate on losing weight again.
I have lost almost 7 kg (1 stone) and I am proud to say that this is the first time I have done it without the aid of drugs. First, in the 90s, there was an amphetamine product called Letigen, which made you very energetic and took away your appetite. Then there was Reductil, an appetite suppressant, which made me eat because I HAD to, not because I WANTED to………. I have to say, that I liked those pills as they helped me control my addiction to food. However, we all know they are very unhealthy (and both off the market for health reasons now), but the worst thing is that you don’t actually beat your addiction, you just keep it at bay with drugs, but when you finish the drugs, your mind is the same and the problems the same, so this time I am doing it the natural way – eating healthy, wholegrain and exercising loads.
I try to only eat rye bread – it keeps me full for a long time and keeps my energy levels up. I have it with a low fat topping such as cottage cheese with tomato, ham and mustard or low fat pate with cucumber or pickle. In between, I snack on fruit and vegetables. I have also opted out on the Bread-and-Cake-Club at work as I realised that I was snacking away on Danish pastry all Friday, every Friday, just because it was there. But I AM a food lover, so my way of keeping myself motivated is to keep my calorie intake down during the day and then have a normal meal with my family in the evening, this means that it’s not too hard and also I get to cook the way I like….and then I go to the gym 4-5 times a week and attend Zumba classes and dance classes of that kind. It is the first time EVER, I have enjoyed exercise and I hardly ever find excuses not to go (something which used to be a problem). Today my sister and I are trying a Thai Bo class for the first time, to see if we can cope with it, as we have signed up for a two hour Thai Bo event on Saturday…… I have a feeling I will not be able to lift my arms to cook the dinner on New Year’s Eve after that!
So, as New Year approaches and the eating orgies over Christmas have subsided, my thoughts are on getting back to my healthy routine, and hopefully this summer, feel a little bit better about wearing a bikini than I did last year!